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The scary thing about love

I’m almost positive that when you read this, you might feel the same.

 

It all started with a morning conversation about kissing. we laughed, there were questions, and then you told me you were in love with me.

My heart was pulsing so much I could hardly concentrate on the meeting I was in. Finally the one I adored, was in love with me..

Days and weeks went by, happy, like never before.

And one sad day I woke up realizing that something big happened and I wasn’t even aware of it all.

I regret ever asking you about it

Because it all went down in flames

I cried, you cried

And then you told me you couldn’t do it anymore, not the way we are use to be together.

Now

I listen to the voice notes you sent me, saying… Baby.. I.. Really love you

And it plays over and over in my head and in my heart, because I’m still there and you’re nowhere to be found

 

And now…

Even in the briefest of moments I get glimmers of who we use to be

The love we shared, the happiness

 

And now…

I’m left behind

Because there’s so many things waiting for you

While I just sat, waiting for you

 

Because..

There has never been anyone else for me, you were the first, you’ll be the last

 

A heart can only scar that many times

And I won’t beg to be hurt, yet another day

 

Love..

The girl you left behind.

 

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… Forgive me

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I don’t know what I have become
Sometimes the only words I know is :
I’m done, done done!

My heart is too soft and I care too much, I get trampled on by the ones I trust.

Forgive me if I never trust again.
Because you, oh dearest, caused this pain!
I’m burning,  burning,  up in flames.
I am sorry, I’m done playing these games.

My heart is heavy and my soul never stays, this is me, stuck in a haze.
Becauae the ones I love, only hurts me so
This is me
And
I’m ready to go.

I think I may need some more caution tape

The bright yellow lables were caught between my ribs. Covering each part of my chest as a danger zone.

      HEART UNDER CONSTRUCTION
     DAMAGED AND MAY FALL APART

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LOOK INTO MY EYES, DO YOU SEE IT
     CAN YOU SEE MY BROKENNESS

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There has been an accident. . .
I can feel the chaos, everywhere in my body.
Overheating my mind, making me feel dizzy with pain.
My chest tighten,  my breath flows away, my lungs start to empty and I feel like there’s no reason to stay.

I love too easily
I love like you fall asleep..
First slowly, and then all at once.
Please stay?….
But no one every really does.
In life your not allowed to keep anything, except memories.

Life is painfully progressive at most.
We find ways to cope, but not all of them last long
But we live. We put one foot in front of the other and we keep going.
And if you would ask me :
“Do you still believe in magic?”
My answer will still be
“yes”